I’m in my luteal phase, an important concept I only uncovered today. Since I’ve been feeling so seemingly crappy, and it’s not yet time for my ‘period’, I decided to pause and investigate. Even as I type this, some part of me is saying, “Shhh…don’t talk about these things.” As a teen, my education about … Continue reading Celebrating my Divine womanhood
Author: Mindy Rubenstein
My heart and soul long for closeness with G-d, my true self, my people and our land
I spent part of the morning studying a map of Israel. While I've never stepped foot in/on the Holy Land, my son is in high school there this year. Each time I thought I would get to travel there, G-d decided it wasn't the right time yet. My heart and soul often feel oddly disconnected … Continue reading My heart and soul long for closeness with G-d, my true self, my people and our land
Giving Myself Approval and Acceptance
I was about to delete the vulnerable post I shared last week. Then a message came to my inbox: Hi Mindy,Thank you for posting about your feelings and your conversation with Hashem. I am like wow! That's exactly what I needed to hear and that so much resonates with my own thoughts today. Your words … Continue reading Giving Myself Approval and Acceptance
Good (G-d) Vibes Only
By Mindy Rubenstein 14,560 I calculated approximately how many hours I’ve spent actively doing healing and growth work during my adult life -- in essence, trying to feel happier, to ease anxiety, depression, and fix old wounds. Though I earned a graduate degree and spent two decades in my field trying to rely on my … Continue reading Good (G-d) Vibes Only
Strong and Courageous: ‘We’ won today’s battle with the Yetzar Hara
We won today’s battle with the yetzar hara, the evil inclination. Those insidious thoughts that told me I’m lacking — that others are better, smarter, more motivated and successful — were weighing me down. Then I read a quote from psalms — “Look to the Lord: be strong and courageous,” it said. But the words … Continue reading Strong and Courageous: ‘We’ won today’s battle with the Yetzar Hara
RISING IN THE MORNING
B"H I recently started teaching Judiac studies at a local private school. Though I have taught at Jewish schools in Virginia and Florida, much of my 20-year career has been in Jewish journalism and publishing. As a BT, I chose to live a Torah-observant lifestyle and have been learning with rabbis, rebbetzins and chavrusahs through … Continue reading RISING IN THE MORNING
practicing the art of surrender and gratitude in the jewish new year
I surrender.My family and I moved to the Jewish community of Surfside last month, right before our son left for high school in Israel and I spent the afternoon weeping in the airport, along with the other moms.Then came the high holidays, an intense time on the Jewish calendar that includes the New Year, Day … Continue reading practicing the art of surrender and gratitude in the jewish new year
Permission to Feel
I keep saying and thinking that being a writer isn’t enough. But what if it is? Just getting up everyday, feeling gratitude, loving myself, my husband and my kids, and writing. Everyday. About healing and G-d and business and baking challah and beautiful red star-shaped flowers falling to the grass. About storm clouds in the … Continue reading Permission to Feel
I Am A Religion Addict
I thought I was broken, and that when I discovered Torah Judaism 14 years ago, it would fix me. Those thoughts that exist in your mind that tell you that you’re not enough, you don’t have enough; I had believed them. And so I searched for meaning in life and authenticity and G‑d and structure. And during a beautiful Shabbat dinner … Continue reading I Am A Religion Addict
What I learned from my recent miscarriage
I’ve gone through multiple miscarriages in my lifetime. The first one was around age 26, a couple months before I got pregnant with my oldest child who is now 16. If you do the math you know I’m in my 40s. The most recent pregnancy loss was last month. I was 11 weeks along technically, … Continue reading What I learned from my recent miscarriage